I just realized that Cruella never really went away. I have been making all of these improvements, but Cruella still pops up. She criticizes the "old me" and now I just find versions of myself to criticize. And for some reason I like that. Everything seems so much better if I could drop this critical part. I don't know why but I'm not looking forward to this period after graduation.


Sometimes I don't want to publish these depressing blogs. But I think it is kinda interesting to look at, and be like " That's what being depressed is like" Good to know.

So like I said, I would like be able to enjoy things right now, instead of feeling really unsure about everything, and letting that drag me down.